For the first time in my life, I felt so angry at someone whom I never thought I can be angry with. 

Hell, that person even suggested I don’t even have to feel that stressed, because everyone has work to do.

I understand that, smarty pants. It’s a group effort. Everyone’s gotta work. 

Between you and I, however, with all due respect, I have more responsibilities in my hands than you ever will. 

Take a walk in my shoes. Perhaps you’d think twice.

Well, I’d still like to give credit to this person. This person is one of the most hardworking people I have met. I respect this person so much, but today this person made me feel so angry. 

I was even more upset after she said that. It made me feel that I can no longer be open to how I feel. 

I’ve been feeling that way with these people lately. I was always the last person to know, yet the first person to be picked on at any given time.

It may seem normal around friends, but I do not have the luxury of enduring it every single damn time. 

My patience is slowly wearing thin. Honestly. It feels like any minute, I am a ticking clock, ready to explode. 

I have decided to refrain from being super nice from this day on. You can’t rely on any human being. They don’t give a damn on your problems anyway. 

OK…I say I stop being nice all the time only to find myself being nice again. 

You know what else I need to do: TO LOVE MYSELF MORE. I give too much of myself away to every damn people I met, hoping to make them happy…to at least get some of it back. 

And it’s a sad thing. With humans, there is no such thing as unconditional love. It’s the truth and the painful part. With your partner, you ask for such and such. 

“Babe, if you could just…for me”

“Honey, it would be better if…”

“I love you, but…”

“Mahal, mas OK sana kung…”

With your friends, you have advices you get from them, but with so much hypocrisy and pretention in this world, you no longer know the difference between concern and disrespect.

I’m taking that much-needed walk in the park. I gotta love myself more. And if it means letting go of people from your present to be happy in the future, I’d do it. There is nothing more sensible than to liberate yourself from the unhappiness you feel and to make way for those who wish to bring out every best in you.